I'm stuck in the same mindset as yourself. I turn to music and my motorcycle to get my "fix" of enjoyment in life. Other than that I kinda just "float" through life enduring it as I go. I don't wanna repeat the same thing everyone says but its got truth to it, finding that ONE thing that makes you happy/satisfied in life will give you something to help. My motorcycle is what does it for me, winter is allot harder on me because I can't ride it.