I am starting to see a pattern here. Of like logical vs emotional responses. Not saying one is better than the other - ive been trying to get more in touch with my emotional side for a long time. But DBT wants us to combine them into wise mind. Anyway, thats what it looks like from the sidelines - the anti-ts are solidly emotional. My advice: feelings are universal. Youre not the first or only person to feel the way you do. A LOT of people do. You are not unique in that way. Just the FEELING. Otoh, your set of circumstances is unique. You are a special snowflake. We all are. Thats what makes you interesting and lovable. I think the question of power is solved by being in wise mind.