I've always tried to teach my children self awareness going as far as having my boys write down a safe word on fridge so when they wrestle they each know when to use their safe word before play turns into a fight. It helps them so much. But when being self aware isn't taught young it is very hard to do as an adult. Maybe I need a safe word too! Maybe we all do. It would be so much easier if we could just check out every time we need a time out. But life doesn't run like that so we are forced to conform. I've battled this for a long time but since being diagnosed recently I feel like the elephant in the room all the time and cringe when my husband asks what's wrong and I have no answer then he uses the b word. I say I am not ashamed of who I am but now that I feel labeled which was necessary for much needed treatment. Nothing has changed yet so much has changed inside. Sorry for the rambling it just seems to pour out today.

No matter how small, a positive change deserves to be celebrated!