I've been thinking about what I said - that I don't have parts show up at work. I guess that's not entirely true. There have been times that others have shown up at work. But it's the exception, not the rule. It only happens if something is going on to trigger me. Here are a few examples of when others have shown up at work:
My coworker had a stroke at work. It caused a part to show up who used to get traumatized by my sister's sudden illnesses and accidents when we were kids.
I'm at lunch reading a book or article, and it starts mentioning SA. A part shows up who experienced SA as a child, and I have the associated feelings of shame and badness.
I've left a t session feeling like I needed to express something bud didn't do it because I felt like it was stupid and childish. .so a couple of days later, I will be at work, and a child part will appear and insist on sending my t an email message. I (regular me) says No and tries to prevent it, and a struggle goes on between us. She types something. I revise it or erase it. She types again. I erase or change again. Etc. Sometimes, 1-3 hours can pass while I am in this zone. I am aware when it is happening but can't stop it. I also don't realize how much time has gone by while it is happening. When this has happened at work, I have had to use vacation time for those hours I didn't work because I don't want to cheat my employer during the time I didn't get my work done.
Every so often, something will happen to bring up one of them and if I can't get them wrangled back in so they don't show, I have had to leave work and go home before other people noticed I was spaced out or crying or whatever.
So yes, parts have shown up at work, but only when something happens to make them show up. Otherwise, I am just regular me, what I call the ANP.
Maybe that clarifies things. . .or does it just muddy things more?
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