Hi Skeezyks,

What you said about "free floating" anxiety hits home with me. There are many times when I feel a physical uneasiness like anxiety, but I am not mentally aware of anything bothering me. Is that how free-floating anxiety feels to you?

I DO focus at work. Being an editor and writer requires me to concentrate fully on my work. I do find, though, that if something happens to trigger a bad memory from my past, or I feel a different part of me show up in my awareness, I have to get a handle on it (put it back away so I can keep working). If I can't do that, it can become very difficult for me to go back to my concentrated state. At times, I am not able to do it and a period of zoning occurs, or an unexpected period of crying, etc., things that if I can't make it stop soon, I end up having to leave work.) Thankfully, my t has taught me coping skills that are starting to help me gain control when that happens instead of losing the in-control, normal feeling part of me.

I'd like to have neuropsych testing, just to put my mind at ease. But my t has told me she is 99.9% sure it has nothing to do with early onset Alzheimer's. She is pretty certain it is PTSD/dissociation related. I have an apt with my psych today to get a prescription refill for my meds. I think I'll talk to him about the memory thing and see what he says.