Crying and angry for days until I am just spent, exhausted. Then he becomes sensual.

I am being gaslighted. He insists he doesn't do it on purpose. He says he's just that scatterbrained and loves me, is turned on by me, wants to act on his feelings, but just doesn't.

This has driven me insane.

We had sex yesterday, he initiated, finally acted sensual after me being hysterical over his neglect for weeks. Then I feel like I love him and act content. Suddenly, my depression lifts, I can function, I feel good. I enjoy that good feeling for as long as it lasts, knowing it will only last a week until he neglects me and starts this cycle again!