I don't know the best answers to all of this.

I think it might help to see if you can work to find a place of security within yourself. We get attached to our therapists, I'm attached to mine, but the actual therapy we do can be done with anyone sitting in his chair (my T is male as well). As long as the person is competent, I don't need *him* specifically. I just need *a* therapist. A therapist who is ethical and is skilled.

I don't know if it would help to focus on trust in a smaller way - that is, you don't have to trust that he will never abandon you, but can you find some small measure of trust that says you know that if he needs to end therapy for some reason that he will do so ethically?

I'm just brainstorming. I'm sorry that your previous T abandoned you I know that trust is a hard thing to learn, while I don't have trust issues as a result of T issues, I am terrible at trusting people. It has taken me a very long time to get to a place of trust with a lot of people in my life, not because of them but because of my own experiences.