Are you in therapy?

You ARE a lovable person....a lovable person who has her own struggles with depression. There are people out there who will love you for who you are and they won't see you as a depressed girl. They will see you for who you are and understand your struggles.

I think that therapy could help you reign in the negative thinking. Have you ever tried CBT? I know I recommend it a lot, but that's because I have such negative thinking issues myself and CBT is the only thing that's helped turn around my thinking style.