The doctor I called never called me back. I had intended to follow up today but an appointment with another doctor this morning (for my arthritis) took the wind out of my sails and left me feeling down all day. Tonight I can't sleep again and I'm feeling unmotivated to get help after promissing several people (including here) that I would.

Thank you AbbyNormal2 (love the Young Frankenstein reference BTW) I just don't feel like trying anymore as what you describe has not been my experience. All of my kindness and personality only seems to garner me tons of friends never anyone that loves me after over 50 years of trying. Any attempts on my part have led to rejection or worse... Guys only interested in sex or worse interested in my money. (When they find out I don't have any their gone LOL). I'm not attracted to that many people in the first place which makes it even harder. I need to get to know someone really really well before I begin to develop a trust and some respect and then an attraction.

I came here because helping other people has helped me in the past but I'm finding it hard to post on other threads all I can do is whine about my own selfish situation and be negative.