Here I though I was going to start doing better.....without the help of any kind of dr. or their damn meds. And then the last 2 days have been horrible. I hate everyone and everything it seems and all I want to do is cry. Everything is going wrong and I just can't deal with it. And DH seems to be just ignorant to everything or just not care. I get up at 4am get DD to daycare every day and bust my butt to out of this office by 5pm and get to daycare by 6pm. Mind you I have what is actually an 1hr and 20 min drive. And this morning I ask DH to take DD to DC and what does this retard say...."why can't you just take her". I wanted to scream "HEY LOOSER....WHY DON'T YOU DO SOMETHING EVERY NOW AND AGAIN!!!" And maybe I'm making something of of nothing...but I'm stressed, I'm depressed and it seems as though he could care less to help do ANYTHING other than take care of HIMSELF....what is the deal....are men just stupid? Not care? How does someone that says that care so much, act as though he doesn't care for anyone but him? And how is it that one minute I'm high and happy as if the world is great...and the next I want to yell and hit the next person that says something stupid? Hormones? Am I just a nutt?
This is mindless ramble...but I'm so upset right now and what seems to be EVERYTHING and I'm here at work and no one to talk to......I'M GOING TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!