(((((((((tryingtocope))))))))))

I'm so sorry to hear that your husband is treating you this way. I'm not in the same position, but I was with my ex and it's horrible and wrong. I understand what stefeno is saying about depression being your enemy...but maybe you need to get out of that kind of relationship. I find it hard to believe that he ever gave anything is best if he is telling you that you are a dissapointment to him. And that he doesn't want to hold you and help you. You can't get through something like depression with someone telling you are worthless. Is that the reason for the depression or just adding TO your already having depression. Either way....it's wrong and you can do better and SHOULD do better. No one deserves to be treated that way. And one day maybe he will realize the chance he missed to grow with you and help you and be there to love you....because one day he will need to be loved....and he may need to be help and supported through a hard time.....and he will be alone......