(((((((((((hugs for you))))))))))))))) so sorry things are so stressful for you right now. i now that feeling and its not a very good place to find yourself. i hope your load will be lightened soon and that you can somehow get the help you need. i would try, when you dont feel explosive, to explain these feelings and what you are going thru to your husband. sometimes we have to spell it out for people for them to understand. maybe once his eyes have been opened he will be more supportive and helpful.

you are in my thoughts
recluse1