hi there i've been cutting my own hair since last spring and it's become a bit of an ocd thing for me.
after thanksgiving i cut my chin length hair into a pixie.
around new year's eve i made it even shorter.
i've never shaved my head but i've thought about it.
tbh i do like having it short. i don't like my obsession with it but i like it looking different and a little funky compared to when it was long.
i'm married to a man who prefers long hair. i was afraid he would not find me appealing anymore, but he seems to like having the easy access to my neck, and shorter hair is easier to wash so i've been bathing more which is a plus to him. i'm sure he'd rather it long but i don't think it has destroyed our relationship or anything.
like, when we visited his family after new years, initially i was going to cover it with a hat but decided not to, to kind of "own" it. it felt good. earrings look nice with short hair too.
hard to know if i am helping, i'm in a very conflicting place with this myself, but above all else, i hope you will be kind and loving to yourself no matter what your hair it's a hard thing to go through but i can understand how you may be feeling as i've been there too