NewCommer, yes - all of those things did cross my mind. Another thing I didn't mention is that my mother wears "masks". She smiles a lot and laughs a lot when she gets uncomfortable.
She was jealous when I met my now-husband. She didn't like the idea of me loving him. I think she wanted to have a perfect mother-daughter relationship like sometimes seen in movies but that has failed. I would like to talk to her more about it but I have no idea how to approach this topic. Every time I try to speak my mind usually ends up in a fight.
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