feeling down today, though not entirely hopeless. i woke up way too late again (1:30). and so i asked my mom that from now on, if i'm not awake by 12:30, to please get me up. i feel so silly having to ask my mom to wake me up because i can't get myself to. and to think i almost went back to sleep for a little bit longer today, until i looked at the clock and gasped. good thing i didn't then.

so it's now 3:30, i've only been awake two hours, and so i haven't done much. i really wanted to dust off my cat figurines on the book shelf and to rearrange them. it's something i've been meaning to do for ages now, but never got around to. they are covered in cobwebs and look nasty right now. however, being as i woke up so late, that won't get done today.

one good thing that happened was that my shirt that my mom ordered arrived today. i didn't expect it to get here so early. i tried it on. it fits really well and feels nice. i'm really happy with it. though i feel kind of bad for enjoying material things so much, because i'm trying to be a more spiritual person again.