I spent years learning how to bury feelings, hide emotions and deny my feelings even to myself.
I've been in therapy for 19 months now and so many new feelings and thoughts which were outside my awareness have come to the surface. It's quite scary really!
When I'm outside of my session I find myself wanting to talk about these feelings with people a lot, and I'm still learning to navigate when this is and isn't appropriate. My social skills aren't the best anyway, but I've never had any experience with appropriate disclosure of emotions to others, because I've rarely been aware of feeling any emotions before. So it's all new to me.
Recently, after a few drinks, I said something about my feelings to someone that I really wish I hadn't. I am sure that if I hadn't been in therapy, these feelings wouldn't have been in my awareness, let alone on the tip of my tongue.
Does anyone else struggle to strike a balance when talking about these types of things out of session? Is it simply a matter of practice?