Right now I am crying, I feel as tho I was cursed with a lifetime of depression. To me alot of ppl go 20 years into there life and are hit with depression, I seem to have been depressed since i was first born, I remember it all so well, so does my mom.

I am sorry god that I have rejected you, what must I do if I am in pain? The tears that flow, the love, that is lost, I am talking to myself, as I cry,....I cry,...I am ok...

I am not ok...................