I think I imagine I am better skilled for the future if I practice a lot of what might happen, different conversations, different scenarios. I don't know IF it actually helps, because nothing ever plays out IRL that I have imagined. Usually in my head, I have some kind of control over things. But when things happen IRL they usually go much worse. I could just as well be totally unprepared and using that time to actually live.

People are too unpredictable, and usually too evil, to be able for me to get my mind around, even imagining wildly.