She ended getting money from me an even brought her dog over to my place which doesnt allow dogs which she knows i don't like. She left quickly because she seen i was upset and she still doesnt get it. She says she will give me money on friday and that's not what I want!!! That's exactly my point. That's treating me like my brother. Her and him borrow money to get by from each other and my brother doesnt do anything with his life which i know sounds mean but i'm too angry to word it better. Instead of trying to find consistent work and do anything to better himself he smokes weed and drinks a lot and just stays in his room and a lot and gets depressed. I get that he has fears and insecurities but geezus wouldn't you hit a point where you would say eff this,i need to do something different,this is driving me crazy.

My worst mistake was me and friend involving our family in our problems. They both don't know the truth or what really is going on and have only made things worse. The best I can do is distance myself for awhile from any of them. I've started to and feel more back to myself and empowered and just need to keep at that. I have had too much going for me for my life to just go bad like this and not have it get really good again. She has no understanding of what my problems even are.