I think you need a break if financially possible. I just started a new job three wks ago. I HAD to and I wasn't ready. Already cried on the job and when I leave I'm in tears by the time I get to my car. I know I wasn't ready to go back mentally. I've had gaps in my work history because of my BP episodes but if I'm asked about it I have to lie. There is no option telling an interviewer I'm BP. At least not for me. I say I was helping out with my dads business which I sometimes do anyway. If you're not seeing a therapist I think you really should. Perhaps consider meds for your depression and anxiety if you aren't on any now. There's nothing wrong with it. I wouldn't worry about not being able to find another job. You're so young still. You have many options in front of you. Many jobs you can find and be comfortable with. Maybe start looking for another job now and then when you find something, put in your notice with the current job.