melissa just called me and says she never wants to speak to me again, she's done with me. we only wanted her to be safe. our two other friends got the same call same message. there are no words for the pain i feel right now. it hurts inside so bad i feel sick. i can't stop crying and i can't stop thinking that it isn't going to end well.

i can hope that it's just her initial reaction and her embarrassment for having to go to the hospital and that she will be ok once she comes down from the meds.
i can hope.
i can pray.