So I'm having a great deal of trouble with my sleep at the moment. I'm not sleeping too much or too little, it's more to do with the fact that when I do sleep I am practically passed out. Unless I go to sleep at 9pm and wake up at 9am, I feel exhausted in the morning. Even if I get 10 hours of sleep, I am exhausted, moody, uncoordinated, sometimes I even slur my words and my memory goes. On the complete other hand though, I feel more awake when I pull allnighters than when I get 12 hours of sleep. Like right now, it's 4:30am and I don't feel tired what so ever.

I have to get up between 6:30am and 7:30am every morning (my mum goes to work and I have to look after my puppy), so sleeping at a normal time like 11pm isn't an option since I wont wake up. I would sleep through the entire day and considering my puppy is in the crate on a night, I can't let that happen. So I stay up through the night, otherwise I wouldn't wake up at all.

I don't know what to do. My therapist keeps saying "you need a routine" etc. But I've had sleep problems since I was 10 or so and I'm 18 now.. so I've tried everything from set bed times/wake times to having soothing baths and reading for an hour etc.

So yeah, I don't know what else to try. My medication isn't on the table right now (my mum isn't giving it to me because she forgets and she wont let me have the pack because of previous suicide attempts) - though the meds I am on now is designed to help send me off to sleep.. except that's not my problem. It's almost like I go into too much of a deep sleep and can't wake up from it.

It also comes in fits and starts - I'll go a week staying up all night and the next few weeks I'll sleep from 9pm until 6:30am and then nap downstairs with the puppy all day (literally all day on and off, 7am until 9am, 10am until 11am etc).

Any advice? Does anyone have any similar experiences?