I know many people have this problem, but I feel like I'm the only one who is really afraid of it. I start this coming Monday, after taking last semester off. I'm in uni, and I'm scared for stupid reasons. I'm mostly scared because I always feel like school makes me go crazy, I can feel it in my mind, like I'm about to snap or cry or something.

I have trouble speaking. I have to do a group presentation in my classes and I'm scared of it. I'm also scared because every time I do a group thing everyone always leaves me out of it. And if they do include me in the conversation, I always cannot speak right so they shut me out again and think I'm stupid. I usually speak in one or two word answers, and then sometimes I don't even make sense. I cannot fit logic together, I'm very bad at it. I also have trouble speaking on the spot, out of routines, and I just cannot do it. I've escaped so far in my entire schooling, I’ve never spoken once in class, not even for a question, but I fear it's coming to an end.

I'm also scared cause I do not have any friends. I've been there four years and I haven't met anyone. I don't know whether I want them or not, because I've never had friends, but it sort of gets to me sometimes...like I think people are watching me and talking about me behind my back. I think they are because I'm sort of strange and not real. Sometimes I think they are reading my mind and it makes me upset.

I do have accommodations at school, just recently I've gotten them, but it's hard for me to request to use them cause I don't like asking the teacher or I'm afraid they'll say no or treat me badly.