To be clear, I'm not saying you have to get rid of T, just what life would be like without this obsession over what T thinks or is doing. It's so wonderful to realise how much actually doesn't need to be said (although it feels urgent) you are so deep entrenched in this therapy that I wondered how life would feel without that obsessive intensity. You deserve good things and checking back into life might be one of those good things.

At some point this T may change boundaries again and I wonder how you will feel?