Hang in there, Breadfish. I have been at the useless stage before, where it seems like it is just inevitable that I am going to kill myself anyway at some point or another so I might as well just do it now. That stages passes, I promise. Try to hold on until it passes. At one point, I broke the day down into pieces -- I would just focus on living until noon. Then 3:00 and then dinner time, etc. Break it down into manageable chunks, maybe.