I never found the hospital to be very helpful. Mostly because it seemed like they did the opposite of what I actually needed. And no one listened. The pdoc I had during my last hospitalization didn't listen to the words I said when I kept telling her that I'd had a long list of meds. My regular pdoc, thank goodness, was on top of sending info and as soon as she received my lengthy list of tried things she was like "My goodness, you really have tried a lot of meds."

No $h!t Sherlock.

Nnnngh.

I'm sorry Breadfish. I know that feeling and I wish I knew what advice to give you. I didn't find the end of that feeling until I started ketamine and I know how exhausting, how maddening, how horrible it is. It sucks the sleeping pill isn't working. It's okay to reach out.

We're here to listen too.