The point is that it seems he would like to do it in real life but I dont know. If he were younger I would do it. Now we dont have a time and place so I have a time to think about it.
Im gonna see new therapist after two weeks so I hope it will help me to understand myself. I dont know what I want, Im splitted because I like him but dislike his age. Maybe when I will know him better I will understand do I want this. As I said if he were younger I would go for it. The only thing that stops me is that he is much older then me.