I don't know whats going on with me. My emotions are so out of control. I am angry, scared, and sad. I have experienced loss, illness, and job stress. In the last month my coping skills have gone to ****. I am hiding out from family and friends. I have no desire to do anything and I feel physically ill and useless. I am frightened at this loss of control. I am going backward not forward despite therapy and medication and exercise. I have loving family and friends yet I don't want to share this with any of them. I can not lose control. If I fall apart I can't be put back together. Everyone will be afraid and treat me different. I should call T. I should tell doc but I am a care giver and I don't want that title taken away. It is what I am most proud of!