I'm also on carbamazapine which is also anti-seizure. So I have no idea where he's getting the whole seizure idea from. It makes absolutely no sense. And I've had brain scans. Nothing was abnormal. He's not a specialist in eating disorders OR addiction. He's just a general psychiatric nurse practitioner. There are groups at my clinic for addiction, I don't know about eating disorders, but my clinic is all about the groups. I don't know why he's not making referrals. But I have horrible insurance, so maybe that's part of why. I don't want more appointments anyway, but that's just my apathetic depressed self talking.

I'm totally fine with the bipolar diagnosis. I've had the diagnosis for several years now, and I'm fine with taking medication for it. I just really want to be on medications that a) work for me and b) don't cause weight gain.

And yeah, I am the kind of person who takes EVERYTHING in life to the extreme. It's all or nothing. I can't seem to find the middle ground, so I guess I have to stay away from things that are bad when you take them to the extreme...but I kind of need to eat, so I can't just avoid food, as much as I'd like to. It's all easier said than done, that's all I know so far.