(((((((((((((tryin))))))))))))))) only if you want them right now.

I'm sorry for what happened to you. I think you have the right to feel any way you want to feel and need to feel to get through...period.

I told my t that it would've been so much better for us if my father had died in Viet Nam. On the other hand, one of the reasons I wouldn't tell on my older brother (my main abuser in many ways) was because I knew (in my child's mind) that my father would kill him. I didn't want him to die. I think we feel and think whatever we need to in order to get through what we need to. I still don't understand our younger thinking sometimes, but don't blame self any longer for that thinking. I got through...that's what matters.

I wish you peace soon, and hope you can feel ok about thinking and feeling whatever you needed to and may need to in the future, to deal with what happened.

Be safe and I'm thinking about you,

Kimmydawn