Oh we know that feeling.
Since the original one (the one born with the body) is gone we feel like that almost every day. You kinda get used to it. It's bad that we have no clue what happened when she was out and doing stuff but that is why we have pictures of her childhood and some memories that are just ours. So we can clearly remember going on stage and dancing or acting but I have no clue what it was the rest of the time.
It might be a part that went silent. That part might come back, or may not. Sending you happiness!