My flashbacks started in September last year, and are still pretty much daily. Im in my late thirties. The very first flashback was the very worst - where the whole of me felt like I experiencing it. Now its not so bad. I get mainly physiological effects with little emotional / mental involvement. (I am completely aware where I am, what Im doing when it happens).

Over time I've started building a picture. So where as the first flashback was horrific and traumatising it was only maybe a minute or two of an event which I had no previous recollection of. It easily could have been brushed off as my sick and twisted imagination. Over the months my memories have increased so there are relatively few blanks. My T described it perfectly as watching a plant grow. Each time I visit it, it has a few more leaves. Because Im now seeing a bigger picture, Im finding it harder to say I imagined this all, that it is a delusion. The original flashback memory is now maybe twenty minutes long - and has been joined by many others.

Its looking more and more likely these memories are real memories. And whats more, the more I read about this phenomena (and I only read 'text' books, not self help or personal stories) the more I understand that what I am going through is an absolutely text book CSA survivor experience. There is reams of information for therapists on what causes recovered memories, how to identify memories from delusions, and how to treat it. I think you are right to question continuing with your current T ---- she does not sound well read or knowledgeable or empathic to your situation.