(((((((((((((((((okiedokie)))))))))))))))))))
i hope things go well at the meeting. a job is just a job. its not your life or who you are and your abstinence is certainly not worth less than a job! try to remember something that relaxes you and focus on doing that for a while before you go to the meeting. meditation, listening to music, praying, just having some quiet time somewhere to yourself etc.
good luck
biiv