If your goal is to become emotionally healthy confident woman who is happy and content with her life and then attract emotionally healthy men ( or be happy otherwise) then it is a good goal. And seeing a therapist would be extremely helpful ( was for me, as I myself struggled with not attracting right people and settling for losers the way you do), if you cannot find a therapist then see a doctor.

You said you have a depression. Yet you don't see a psychiatrist or therapist or any doctor? Were you actually diagnosed?

Also get busy with life regardless if you are in a relationship or not. Keep busy

Keep posting here. People aren't trying to hurt you but help you!

If however your goal is to marry regardless who even if he is a cheater or compulsive liar etc then I don't think it is the best goal ever.

You continue being upset that this man who apparently was horrible liar and cheat is getting married. He wasn't even good BF! You keep saying you weren't good enough for him to marry you. Do you ever consider he isn't good enough for you to marry? Do you really think he is the best you can do? You are selling yourself short

I don't see anyone kicking you. I see people give you suggestions that could help

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