So I have my T appointment in an hour, nervous. Sent him some pretty scary stuff in emails this week, on how I am feeling and we are talking about the anger release sessions. I wrote things out that I need to say, I get in his office and the emotions over whelm me and I end up saying nothing, just staring at his fountain he has in his office, I used to use it as a focal point, now I use it as an escape from the issues!!!