Sometimes I believe I must be so strange because I've had some brain damage. I feel retarded today. My sister thinks that's a very bad word and never to be used, but it means slow if you really think about it. Maybe it's lack of sleep. Maybe I'll never believe in myself, because too much has happened. I'm not depressed, just tired of questioning myself. Thinking I must be a bad person deep down, that I don't deserve love.