So,i had him come by last night instead of going out to meet for drinks because that was easier for me(my anxiety condition) last night. He got more attractive. He wasn't mean at all in person. He asked me during our hanging out last night in the early part of the night if i wanted us to go to a movie sometime because i brought up movies randomly and it was really cute how he did it. It was like he was asking me on a date to do something he thought i wanted to do or just as a future date suggestion maybe,idk. I don't know why but movie dates make me swoon maybe because they are so classic. He also brought up the us having a relationship thing asking me what do i want to do about having one and idk somehow it didn't get answered. I got shy and the subject got changed but it was brought up by him basically asking if i wanted to make it official then and there. He brought rum and I had candy at the house. He was cute also because he randomly washed a dish for me out of nowwhere without me asking him to,so he could give me more rum even though there was dishes. He also was very take control with figuring out how to turn the heat off then back on when i got cold and little things like that. I was surprised. I like dominant guys and wasn't sure how dominant he was. He was very classic boyfriend in terms of the taking care of me guy type things. He kept staring at me when he walked in complimenting me. I asked him the next morning what he thought of us hanging out finally and he said it was good and that i'm even more beautiful in person. We did not have sex. He did sleep over and did other things to me though and was a bit forceful. I let him use my shower before he left and before he went in he kept staring at me and looked really happy just noticing me. He wanted me to come in with him and of course I told him no and he just kept looking at me funny like he just thought i was so beautiful and sexy. We kissed a lot as he had his coat on about to walk out the door when he left and that was that. So,we have chemistry and attraction. There was a few slight things,though like he was a bit forceful and it reminded me of a puppy that just would not stop and it took a lot of energy to get him to sometimes and I have been very weak physically lately. Also,while sleeping,he grabbed the middle of my arm in a way that made jump a bit and say ow,but i think it was just the awkward placement and being so tired and that I have a sensitivity about certain parts of my arms being grabbed from past abusive relationships. I think he seemed concerned about that when it happened. It's hard to tell how experienced he really is. I get signs that point me either way to him being lesser experienced side of things and more experienced.My only concerns at this point is if he is going to want to see me again really soon since last time that's what he wanted and it was him rushing to see me again that caused us fights and to not speak for months.I do like to take things slow. I also wasn't sure i liked him back then though. He seemed different this time. More confident. I do like him.
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