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Originally Posted by Angelique67
I think they're going to break in tonight. Wednesday night and last night were dry runs with their signals (car horn honks and whistling ). I think they're going to break in and kill me. If they wear masks and bring strangers in, no one will be able to tell who they are. I'm sick with fear. I don't know what to do.
If I go to a motel it's only for one night. Can't afford more. If I get the hospital to admit me, I'm only going to be discharged in a week and end up back here. A relative told me on Wednesday to leave here and go to the airport and never come back here. Maybe that's what I should do. I'm so confused I can't figure out how to pack and what to bring. I am sick to my stomach.
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I can't imagine, and I wish I could say something more productive or personal, so take some internet hugs.
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I was right when I said today would suck. I've been carting all my stuff around with me and it hurts. I think I'm going to book into a hostel for the next couple nights - I wish I had done that sooner, I could have saved myself over $50 that are now gone. My chances at employment are zilch, and while I found a place to rent for real I have no idea how soon I would be able to move in. Then, my money's going to run out soon, and social services is full of idiots (AND I'll have to get temp. assistance which means I'll have to go back to job search classes - which I hate)
I will not go home. My mother keeps calling me and says it's different, it won't be like it was when I lived there, and I don't believe her. I just can't.