Just to let you know that it is possible to forgive others and never let them abuse you again.

I had a lot of trouble with Forgiveness, and still do whenever I forget to let go of my old understanding of it.

Forgiveness is not about forgiving another person, it is about self-forgiveness for wanting compensation - to punish and return the abuse (so to speak).
Forgiveness is about letting go of revenge - such as needing others to apologize.
Forgiveness is not about condoning, excusing, or pardoning the abuser. That is not for us to do.
The truth (and law) and the abuser's own admittance (forgiveness), repentance, etc does that.

Forgiving others only comes from self-forgiveness. For me, it is identifying with the fear that is in us all. We are all victims to it.

Forgiveness without self-forgiveness still makes ourselves vulnerable to abuse.