Only Human, you truly are feeling your biological clock and the urgings of motherhood. That is the basis why we are. And i pray that you find someone else to share your life with. People can be very disappointing, even those we love or think that we love. I say just stop looking and be happy and content with what you have. As you heal in this way someone will come into your life when you stop looking and least expect it. It seems to happen that way all the time. Blessings and tc