So I text my therapist when I was having a panic attack and she text me back. But I felt bad about doing that over the weekend and so I apologized today.

I just got an email back from her saying that she wants to talk about what's going on but also talk about out of session contact to find something that felt ok. I don't know if she means feel ok for me so I stop apologizing, because she's told me before that I need to stop apologizing, or feels ok for her because she's upset about the texting.

I don't want her to be upset with me and I know I shouldn't try to be in contact with her at all, but sometimes I just want to see her name pop up on my phone or in my email. She's all I have to talk to about done things and I don't know what else to do.

I'm so nervous and I want to email her to ask if she's upset, but that would just be more contact! I'm stuck feeling anxious and upset. Please, what should I do??