Miktis25, we often have those thoughts due to fear. Like in the movies someone shoots someone, they empty all the bullets in them, to make sure they are dead. We so want to guarantee to ourselves that we never will have to endure anymore pain or suffering at the hands of our tormentors, we do fantasize about it from time to time. Life is not about looking over our shoulder. It does not mean we have to kill everyone to feel safe, it means we have to settle our minds that we have moved beyond that and allow ourselves to heal and grow. That is the process we need to achieve. I hope that helps. tc