I think they're going to break in tonight. Wednesday night and last night were dry runs with their signals (car horn honks and whistling ). I think they're going to break in and kill me. If they wear masks and bring strangers in, no one will be able to tell who they are. I'm sick with fear. I don't know what to do.

If I go to a motel it's only for one night. Can't afford more. If I get the hospital to admit me, I'm only going to be discharged in a week and end up back here. A relative told me on Wednesday to leave here and go to the airport and never come back here. Maybe that's what I should do. I'm so confused I can't figure out how to pack and what to bring. I am sick to my stomach.