I agree that this should be a place of encouragement. And I'm not trying to bring you down or push you away. I want the best for you. I just wanted to bring some rationality to the table. A rational human perspective on your unique life situation is not really something you can just google. That's part of why this place exists. So that people who have had similar life experiences can share their ideas with you.

I know rationality often comes off as cold-hearted (hence the phrases "cold hard truth", and "cold rationality"), but I think it's still an important thing to have in your life. Self-knowledge, rationality, and an objective perspective are very valuable tools for anyone, but especially valuable for anyone who has ever lost all rational connection to the world (i.e. become psychotic), or has become depressed, or manic.

Also, questioning someone does not equate with "bringing someone down". They're just two different things. So I'm confused about your point there.

Anyway, I'm glad you're feeling well. I hope you stay well for as long as possible. Good luck!