Easy there, c'mon, you're younger than i am and i even haven't had my first kiss.
Don't talk that way, it will only hurt you more. Having sex won't make any better of you, in fact, if you just pick the first ********* you encounter, he might end up hurting you.

You're asking if "this is dumb", well, i always say that no one should underestimate other people's problems, so no, if it makes you feel bad, is not dumb, but i'm telling you, sex is not something that makes you any more valuable or desireable, and don't feel bad about it. As a guy i must tell you, i prefer personallity over looks: i've met beautifull girls but with a bi#$% personallity, that i don't even want to befriend them. ANd the other way around, i also have liked women that no one understands why (for example, one was like 20 cm taller than me haha).

Sweetie, you're a really valuable person and you don't have to talk you down that way nor asking for random strangers to get something that, even if you don't think is something THAT special, it has a some of special.

Please, take care and be safe