I hear your pain Girlfriend. I really do, but let me give you MY story and then you do with it what you like.

In Freshman year in high school I slept with this kid. Why? Because he was the FIRST guy to ever show an interest in me and probably because I was as desperate as you feel now. He didn't give a ***** about me though I had convinced myself that he had.

With that out of the way, it took about a year for me to get rolling again, but I slept with a NUMBER of guys who didn't give a ***** about me and doing so, only made me feel worse. When I felt worse, I tried to convince myself that I wasn't a slut that I did what I wanted and I was using THEM. This did not work.

I have a son who is 23 now. When he was younger I told him I did not expect him to wait until he got married to have sex. But I did tell him to make sure that it was something that he could look back on fondly. Let there be SOMETHING there so that he could at least remember her name.

It's something you can only give away once. Make someone spend the time to earn it. My advice anyway.