I will, it's not so much lgbt related more just what I like doing every once in awhile. It's a craving, sometimes can be into an unhealthy obsession because I never had anything other than the norm but not really. I never had anything more than just one person and most of the time. I really didn't like sex. I have a hard time getting off with most people it's mainly the other person always it has been. I only wanted to do it just to do it, I unfortunately told the one girl everything about my sexual fantasies because alcohol clouded my judgement before I snapchatted her and she's probably going to tell her friend how much of a piece of dirt I am and I have no self respect and blah blah blah.
I'm over it...

I think I'm in the minority that can truly separate sex from love, why I do such? I take both seriously, but they shouldn't be together in a sense of you should enjoy and be in the moment and feel emotions, but don't let the drama of relationships hold back good sex. Just sayin. I'm not ready for a relationship and I'm so stupid for believing they take me seriously. I can't take what I said back and with today finding out my mother almost dying. I really can't anybody for anything.

You know I have the worst luck with women who don't understand me they could date me for 6 months to almost 2 years and not know a thing about what I really like or what I find attractive or when I mean stop being insecure over something because you're just complaining to start drama instead of wanting my help or wanting my affection. I had a lot of girls who talked so poorly about me. I lost a lot of weight recently because I hated how I looked and how women made me feel by their words. Being told I can't handle a threesome by my own ex who cheated on me all the time, but blackmailed me or forced me to have sex with her constantly like I'm her toy so I can not have things be worst in that moment many years ago.