Who knows about your participation in therapy and/or past hospitalizations? Who do you choose to tell (friends, classmates, coworkers, etc.)? How do you decide who to tell? And what do you say?

I have had a really hard time adjusting to college. Every day, I feel like I am spending all of my energy trying to maintain this image of me a completely sane person. I feel like I'm trying to come across as put-together and fit in. I realize that I am not really making friends because even when I'm not focusing everything I have on trying to maintain this façade, I feel like I am not being my complete self. My past has had a huge impact on who I am today. I still deal with the impact of mental disorders every single day. I feel like no one really knows me, but I'm not sure that I want them to, even if I felt comfortable enough to tell them.

I feel like I'm back in my freshman year of high school. I am having deja vu about a post that I recall from during that time - I said that I was lonely. I feel lonely now. But this time around, I know why I feel different than everyone around me, because I know that I *am* different than everyone around me. I have words for it, an explanation, something that I can tell people. When I was seeing my ex-T, like I did through high school, I had someone to talk to who was non-judgmental. I could be completely myself. Now I have no t like that, and I worry that telling some of the few 'friends' that I've made here about me will scare them away. What do I do?