My T is person centred and won't diagnose - that frustrates the hell out of me. I really want a diagnosis. Im seeing him privately, and so a diagnosis wouldn't go on my medical records or employment or anything. Eventually after about 15 months he said he would be willing to say I have PTSD. Thats pretty easy for me to agree with. He will make reference to my 'dissociated states' but he won't acknowledge or say I have cPTSD or DID. I want him to say that out loud for several reasons - one of the biggest being the bits of me on the inside want acknowledging, and until he does, it feels like Im faking this, Im a fraud. I know he knows they're there, so I don't understand why he won't say so out loud.

I would also like something to concrete to go back to my family with. They just think Im being awkward, difficult, the black sheep, with unfair expectations. If I could turn round to them and say - look, I have DID, which was in a large (but not wholly) way was brought on by your behaviour to me. Either you get help (like I am) to change your behaviour towards me, or I continue to have an arms length relationship with you for my own safety. They all have experience working in the mental health field, and would respect a diagnosis from someone else more than they respect my feelings.