I've been feeling quite paranoid since posting this, as I felt I'd perhaps been 'too much' in what I shared and perhaps it was being too critical about other approaches to psychotherapy. So hearing that my post has been helpful to you is really nice. For me a lot of the therapeutic work I'm doing these days is focused on that child that never got to develop, but hid herself (from others and ultimately from herself) in order to survive. That someone cares enough to try and offer me a nurturing place to grow myself in, is an amazing experience.

But I've realised over the last few days, this nurturing place has become such a safe place for me though that I'm actually still hiding parts of me - the parts that are worried about doing or saying the 'wrong' thing, being critical of my therapist or in fact just being very honest about all my feelings, including the 'negative' ones towards my therapist. There aren't many, but I realise that I'm doing this because deep down I still fear that if/when I am too honest and show too much of my craziness, my therapist will reject me and I'll lose the safest place I've ever had in the world.

The challenge for me in this therapy is to be brave enough now to share these feelings and aspects of myself that are still hiding. Coming here and posting has shown me this and for that I am very grateful.

Phx